The Beginning

When I think about it, I know I am a pretty lucky woman. I have a wonderful husband of almost 20 years, two beautiful daughters, two wonderful step-children, and between them all, eight grandchildren. I have siblings I am very close to, friends who love me, great neighbors, and a nice little house. I live in a wealthy country, have always had enough to eat, and I have health insurance even though it costs me too much money. Like I said, I am a pretty lucky woman. So why am I sometimes miserable?

Well, sometimes I am. I just am. And when I think about it, I know I am the only one who can change it! 

The Real Me is very happy. Fun, happy and joyful. I have managed to regain a connection to the child inside me and I still remember how to play. But I worked at it… really worked at it. I found out a while back that I don’t have to believe my thoughts, and that the Real Me doesn’t agree with the programming I have running in the background.

So I decided to change it. Change the programming, the thoughts, and the judgments. I’ve changed a lot already. But I need to stop being aggravated and upset. I need to find the good in things. Feel the love of the universe for my soul.

I hope to take a look at the things, people and situations that aggravate me and see if I can lose the anger and find the love. I want this blog to be a tool that I use to connect to the joyous being that I really am.

And when I am connected to the universe, the higher truth of it all, I see beauty everywhere. I feel marvelous. The world is my oyster and I feel the love and acceptance of myself from the Real Me all the way down to my toes. And when I feel that good, I want to share. I want everyone to feel it, see it.

I promise to be honest. And hopefully I’ll grow. I want to feel light in every cell of my being. So let’s see what happens.

~Jan